WTF??? and FTW!!!

Today's WTF??? News:
Yesterday I put on pair of work pants that fit me at the beginning of last year but have not been able to zip since last Christmas. They zipped up and were even a bit loose. Which was good until, over the course of the day, they began to grow!!! The size 18 pants became as loose on me as if I had been wearing a pair of 22's.
The crotch of the pants was hanging to my knees and I actually had to hold the band of the pants to keep them from falling down! It was horrifying, I felt like such a lunatic running errands while holding up my pants! So I decided that trip to the goodwill was in order. Which brings us to...

Today's FTW!!! news:
I tried on several pairs of size 16 pants at the resale shops and most of them were either too big, or just unattractive. I also grabbed a cute pair of Gap size 14 khakis, just to see, and they nearly zipped! I had to buy them, they have become my goal for the end of the summer, I want to be in a comfortable size 14 by the end of September.
I did find two pairs of brown and one pair of black pants that will do well for work, I needed something that looks professional but didn't want to spend lots of money(because I don't plan on wearing them for that long!!!)

Me in one of the new outfits
Did you ever notice that a size 16 at the Goodwill often fits like a 14 does in the store? Its a phenomenon I have often puzzled over.

Incentives

I put on a pair of size 14 jeans this morning and while they were not really "comfortable" they zipped, and I could sit in them, I am thinking that 4-5 pounds from now they will fit well and I will have a skinny jean party!

Until then, as a reward for this massively awesome change(getting to 210) I am going shopping later. I am going to purchase some more tools for making the delicious body healthy foods that are allowing me to change my life and feel good about myself.
My shopping trip will result in a mandolin slicer, mortar and pestle and really good knife, maybe one that comes with sharpener...

My incentive plan is rather ambitious, these are all things I really want and they are worth the extra effort of working out and waiting, besides maybe I'll be able to find good sales on some of these things...

220-Workout clothes
210-Kitchen gadgets
200-Food processor
190-Clothing
180-Going off Birth control (We want another munchkin)
170-Stand Mixer
160-Glider Rocking Chair
150-New wedding rings

You will notice there is a page called incentives here on my blog, I will be posting photos of the incentives as I earn them, and any new ones that come up along the way.

210, yes that's right, 210

Today my weight is 210, which means I have lost 22 pounds since may 17th. I am starting to think I am going to make it to my goal. My personal goal being to get to 180 by January 1st, 2011. The BMI meter and "experts" say I should be shooting for 140, but honestly if I get and stay anywhere around 160 at some point, I will be ecstatically happy.

While weighing in today a coworker told me that she thought I was around 160??? Is it even possible to look so much thinner than you are? I wonder if she was just being nice?

While watching weight loss shows I have seen people who weigh the same as me look way worse than I ever did. I never felt as bad as they say they do, I always felt flexible, strong and pretty okay...

I guess you might say I'm a little more dense than most, which is good and bad. Good because I can look better than than the scale suggests I ought to and Bad, because I will not see results as quickly, at least in the mirror.

I sort of wonder if I have a lot of muscle, if so, it will make this whole endeavor much easier, after all muscle burns fat more quickly and makes your body healthy.

Me, 7-26-2010

9 Weeks In, 19 pounds down

Today I am feeling rather emotional. It's been a hard week, lots of hormonal roller-coastering and leaking(crying, which I hate doing) There are some days when all I can do is sit on my couch and think of how much I would like to eat nachos, cupcakes, pasta, basically anything bad for me. I resist, because I know that my body is just looking for a way to ease stress. My daughters must have some form of esp because they always seem to know when I am feeling down, they come and ask for hugs and tell me they love me, those babies are amazing!

I'm feeling kind of dried out, so I am going to increase my fluids to feel more hydrated. Plus, water makes your body work, right?

Ready for a before and after??? It's amazing, really.

Me, February 13th, 2010


Me, July 14th, 2010

El Diablo Dorito!!!

So last Thursday I weighed myself and had gotten down to 221, a pretty impressive feat in my mind. Then on Monday morning the taste for tortilla chips caught up with me, to the tune of 6 lbs of water weight, I felt so defeated and miserable. I had been flying high on this "look at me and my wieght loss success" vibe that the water just took the wind right out of my sails.

So I gulped some water, took an aqua-ban and attempted to shed the excess moisture. I've got to cut the salt but the dry crunch of a good tortilla chip makes everything in the world look just a little better. Besides that, I love salsa, it's like crack for me. The gain got me thinking, there has to be a way to enjoy the taste of salsa without gobbling enough salt to dry beef.

My thoughts are thus, salsa is good on many things, i am going to whip up a batch and not buy chips. I will try it on salad, baked potato, chicken and fish tacos. I belive this will satisfy the need without sabatoging my body.

My Homemade Salsa,
4 roma tomatoes, diced
1 vidalia onion, diced
4 cloves garlic, diced
5 tbsp fresh cilantro, chopped
2 limes, juiced
1 yellow bell pepper
3 jalepenos, diced with seeds and membrane removed
salt
pepper

1. diced all veggies very small
2. combine all ingrediants.
3. Refridgerate and serve

I didn't do the calories for this because for about a half cups its less than 30 calories.

Do you really want to be "That Girl?"

People who write weight loss book don't often talk about the in between. The time between when you make the decision to change your life and when it becomes realized. At least you don't hear too much about it. On talk shows they show the triumphant skinny girl sitting next to a large cardboard cutout of herself, they have her stand inside her "fat pants" and hold them out so we can all see how great she has done. Or. even better, her fat pants are big enough for two people to stand in. (Jeepers, that's amazing!)

You hear a lot about what food they ate, how often they exercised, the triumph of loss. What they dont talk about is how the in-between is a big let down. The first ten pounds begin to melt off, slowly if you are doing a real life change, and you feel different but no one can tell. Your pants start to fit better, but if you have a significant amount to lose your pants from 20 pounds ago might even still fit. They are loose but certainly not so loose that two of you can jump inside of them.

Your internal movie looks something like this, "pathetic overweight girl drives her cart filled with diet food through the grocery store as thin people whose carts are filled with hot pockets and vodka whisper and giggle behind thier hands. Who does she think she is fooling, you can't eat those foods and get as big as she is. She tries to be brave as she walks by but the other shoppers are saying, she'll never make it, why bother."


Your whole life changes, and unless you really want to be the obnoxious "I'm on a diet girl" no one even knows...

Shesh!

So I'm two weeks in and only three pounds down. Yikes, that's all???

But, since figuring helps me relax, I did some math today. If I don't change anything but my calorie intake I can consume up to 1700 calories a day and continue to lose weight and be at my target by the first of the year. Since I nearly never get that high with the exception of last Saturday, oh! the shame, the horror, the egg rolls...sorry, got a little sidetracked there.

For the first six weeks of this life alteration I will be dealing strictly with food. I don't want to burn myself out and create sabotage for myself. Gotta get my food under control before I start making all sorts of other changes. At some point I will be adding 3 30 minute long sessions of exercise a week. That's going to have to wait awhile though, at least until the nacho craving pass.

I -hate- working out in my house, we have bike and lots of space for workout vids, but I prefer to have time outside or at a gym for working, why does it feel to me like that is so much more beneficial?

Me Last Thursday before the egg rolls happened...