I got home last night and my head started pounding so by the time I was ready for the gym the nursery was closed. I did a shred workout with Jillian and felt like I had accomplished something. I also did the dishes, crocheted a little and made some pancakes and sausage for dinner. I didn't feel like eating but I had one 3 inch pancake and one 1 inch piece of sausage. Then later I ate some watermelon and a handful of pretzels. After eating watermelon for breakfast and cucumbers with carrots and chicken for lunch my day ended under 1000 calories, with tons of water and crystal light.
My doc has instructed me to up my calories to 1800 and be sure to keep hydrated until I can see her in August. Hopefully we'll figure out why I'm so tired all the time, and why I'm having so much nausea and so many headaches. Maybe it's time to have thyroid levels checked again (let's all pray on that one.)
I don't know if any of you are familiar with grave's disease but if it comes back I might have to have my thyroid removed, either by surgically taking it out or by dissolving it with an atomic bomb cocktail (okay maybe that's an exaggeration, maybe) I am terrified of having my thyroid removed. I am scared that it will make me gain weight and be fat forever, at least with a malfunctioning thyroid I lose weight and only get crazy. What's worse fat or crazy?
I have my doubts about the absoluteness of an answer to that question. Losing weight is hard and taking away the biological thing that makes a metabolism work would make it exponentially harder. I'm watching hard for symptoms and I'm not having any aside from being tired and having headaches (which by the way are also symptoms of being a mother of two (adorably cute and remarkably endearing) spider monkeys on speed. (maybe it's a too-mah)
I have to keep paying for the gym if I go or not, so the frugal part of me is demanding that I get my only slightly flabby ass in gear.
Funny story: after "magic time" yesterday, Jeeves and I were laying in bed and he says, "Wow! that's the thinnest your thighs have ever been, look how skinny you are!" I happen to know he is telling the truth, so he is noticing the changes to other parts of my body than my behind (which he laments the loss of) But I don't care if he was lying through his teeth, he got super awesome hubby of the year points for that.