I Can Smile at the Old Days

What up my Ninja's!

Ha! that sounds funnier when you hear it in my mid west white girl voice, :0)

I had a high school flashback while sitting at my desk today. I am sitting here having a bit of breakfast, protein bar and water (exciting, I know) and a song from the Romeo and Juliet soundtrack came across the shuffle of my IPOD on the radio here on my desk. I started singing along and had this very clear memory of being 19 and listening to this song in the basement of my best friends house, sitting on her parents horrid ugly orange couch and drinking my very first screwdriver. The memory caught me by surprise, made me smile and also made me remember that was the year I was the thinnest I've ever been as an adult.

I was a size ten that year, dating jeeves, in my sophomore year of college and working full time. I was probably around 155-60 pounds. Looking back I see how I lost the weight then as a un-intentional version of what I am doing now. In spite of the screw driver I was not a big drinker, and I ate from the school cafeteria, deli sandwiches and salads because they had those to go. I was always on the go, working 40 plus hours a week and 18-21 hours of classes as well. I don't remember thinking much at all about how I looked, I wore jeans, t-shirts and hoodies every day. Funny how looking back now I can see how great I looked. Why is it that we never see the great until it's gone?

I still own a t-shirt or two, and a few pairs of jeans from that year. My final goal in this journey is to get to 160 pounds, I wonder if they will fit again when I get there. I wonder if I will forget to remember the great when it comes back. Will I be able to keep this going, will I gain again? I tend to think not, but I bet that everyone else thinks the same thing.

My current loss is 36 pounds which means I am smack in the middle of this weight loss journey. I have 36 left to lose and feel like the next three months are going to be harder than the last six have been. However I also feel like if I do it, I will have beaten the fat, made the permanent change. I already surprise myself with food choices and the way my head works, perhaps it means I can sustain the loss.

I am going to stay in my pajamas for most of the weekend. I am going to use the time to catch up on some work, do a few walks, work on cleaning out the spare room and get started on the great gift-craft extravaganza. Anyone else have something great going on this weekend? 

P.S. I am making a charm bracelet to commemorate my weight loss. I am forming the charms out of polymer clay and attaching them to a beaded bracelet I have made. I searched and searched online but could not find anything like this on etsy or other websites. My question is, how many of you would be interested in something like this. I am looking for a way to market my craftiness and think I may have run across something no one else is doing. I have heard that WW does key-chains, tops does bracelets, but what about those of us not following a program? I think we should have a way to wear our pride in our accomplishments as well. Opinions?