So I did workout yesterday, did 30 minutes on the elliptical, and I made it count, got my heart rate up and kept it there for at least 20 of those minutes. And then I went home and laid on the couch while the munches jumped all over me. The energy boost that typically comes from my workout did not arrive and I felt even more drained then before. Gracious.
Okay, new plan: I am going to work out everyday this week. I have done it before and it helped me jump start when I had stagnated, hopefully the same will happen this time.
I also thought focusing on something positive would help me jump out of funky-town. I tend to see negatives a lot, I find it hard to focus on positive things. So I figured I would turn my tendency toward negs-ville into a way to show how far I have come.
Things I don't
1. I don't eat entire bags of chips. Not that I don't want to, but I no longer need to, and that's kind of huge for me.
2. I don't have closet full of clothes that are too small. I do however have a pile of boxes full of clothes that are too big, WOO-HOO!!!
3. I don't feel ugly everyday, just sometimes when I have very bad hair days, or when I don't realize my pants are too big and need suspenders by the end of the day.
4. I don't hate my swimsuit, I am actually going to love wearing it next summer, it's so cute and only cost $8.00. Of course maybe it won't fit next summer, *gasp* I may have to buy a new one!!! Say it ain't so...
5. I don't despise sweating, I still don't like just sitting around being hot, but the moist satisfaction of knowing I have spent time building muscle and sizzling fat makes me feel pretty great. ( Wow, the words "moist satisfaction" just came out of my brain, that hilarious, I could change it but why, it's funny)
6. I don't buy XL clothing, nope I don't. HA! I still own XL jammies but they are favorites and i am in the process of altering them cause I love them, plus I like my jammies to be really big and loose.
7. I don't frown at myself in the mirror, well sometimes I do, but not because of the size of my ass anymore. Usually I frown because I have overslept and have to hurry to the office, once I even forgot to change my pants and had to wear my pajama pants at work all day, luckily they were black and knit. Everyone probably thought I was having a fat day or something.
8. I don't have to wear maternity pants. (but I do sometimes, cause damn those things are comfy! and besides they are size 14 maternity pants)
9. I don't hate photos of me, unless Jeeves takes them, that dude has a hard time figuring out how to use our camera, maybe I'll get him an easier to operate one for Christmas.
10. I don't feel like a failure, I am a turtle, I am a duck, I am strong, I can do this, I am not an island, I will stumble, but I am NOT a failure.
4 comments:
Love that list. I think you should print it and put it everywhere - your car, the fridge, etc.
Thanks Draz, I sort of felt like Lennon there at the end, maybe I am an Egg-man too??? Koo-koo-ka-choo!
You inspired me to come up with my own list of 10 "I don'ts." They're fresh out of my random-thought generator of a brain, so they might not all be on-topic!
Great work on the elliptical! We have a treadmill in the garage that is operational, but has been sad and lonely for quite some time. I'm thinking of sending it a postcard.
Hope you're feeling spunky again soon and out of exhaustion mode! You may want to get it checked out if it continues for too long!
Good for you to come up with a list of positives that you should be proud of! I can't wait for the day that I can have a closet full of clothes that "fit" and that I enjoy putting on a swim suit. You are an inspiration!
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